Bipolar Expeditions: "Bipolarity is the universal natural definition, dominating all the physical evolvements..."

North Pole, South Pole, Bi Pole.

...2 Bipolarity is the universal natural definition, dominating all the physical evolvements
Everything is bipolar, and owing to the interaction of the bipolarity contradiction, creates the life-likeness of existing and evolving motion.
From quantum wave-particle duality, quantum transition absorbed energy and delivered energy, particle and antiparticle, real particle and virtual particle, anion and cationic, matter and antimatter, matter and dark matter, positive energy and negative energy, action and reaction, attraction and repellence, accumulation and dissipation, division and synthesis, fission and fusion, chaos and harmony, order and disorder, dark and light, red shift and blue shift, expansion and collapse ,etc, and even female and male of living nature, chromosome X and Y, etc, which including the physical relationship of bipolarity existing and evolving motion, we should realize: no matter for microcosmic quantum field or macrocosmic large-scale structure, universe has defined the universal law and dialectical principle of physical existing and evolving motion bipolarity.
Finding out the sources, quark is the least unite declassified by humankind so far. Quark has six types, formed to three pairs mutually: the first pair is “up” quark and “down” quark (their lepton families corresponding objects are electron and neutrino), the second pair is strange quark and charm quark (their lepton families corresponding objects are µ meson and neutrino), and the heaviest pair is top quark and bottle quark (their lepton families corresponding objects are τ particle and neutrino). The quark and antiquark can be combined by pair to so-called meson format. The quark defines bipolarity corresponding.
Two elementary particle families composing the whole atom substance are quark and lepton, bipolarity corresponding combination of quark families and lepton families define elementary particle.
The least part of element, namely the unit taking part in chemical reaction－atom, is constituted by a tiny positive nuclear and a group of negative electrons surrounding. Positive electricity and negative electricity’s bipolarity define the atom.

Polar molecule and nonpolar molecule’s bipolarity constitute molecule’s electric structure.

The elementary particle deduces substance, energy and fundamental force of the universe with wave-particle duality bipolar attribute, living bipolarity dialectical motion of microcosmic quantum field and macrocosmic large-scale structure.
With the explorations of several generation physicists, many bipolar relationships of the elementary particle, substance, energy and force have been discovered and concluded. We can present the bipolar relationship figure as follows:



Bipolarity is the universal natural definition, dominating all the physical evolvement, the whole of universe is the construction of opposite and unity of elementary particle bipole. All the physical bipolar relationship can be summarized as positive pole and negative pole, all the evolvement motion have the “pole change” tendency and direct or inverse relationship, which may extend toward positive polar dimension or negative polar dimension; If the polar boundary (pole change key point) is exceeded during bipolarity approaching process (“approaching process”—developing along the direction of one dimension. Positive pole approaching process is developing along the positive pole dimension; negative pole approaching process is developing along the negative pole dimension), the poles changing to each other will occur, the positive pole changing to negative pole or negative pole changing to positive pole (Positive poles are such as: positive, Yang, advance, rising, light, solid, combining, etc; negative poles are such as: negative/minus, Yin, back, falling, dark, void, separating, etc.). All the existing and evolvement motion keep to the universal law and dialectical principle of direct or inverse development of the unity of opposites of contradiction.

On Being a "Survivor"

While I was swimming this morning - exercise=recovery yada yada - I reflected upon the term "survivor". Before its current vogue in a different context I associated this word, as a child of post-Holocaust Jews - with hobbling out of Dachau alive, or being rescued from some Japanese POW camp with bamboo still growing under my fingernails or, say, beating cancer.

Now, of course, there are new kinds of survivors. You can be a survivor of almost anything. For example, I am a survivor of 25 years of Eastenders ;) The word does have new meanings and associations and they're not all devalued. What caught my handsome reflection, though? I thought: Many survive many things that cause, induce or increase their mental illness. But as far as I know all I have survived is myself. I am at the centre of my psychodrama. Nobody, as far as I know - and Woody Allenesque upbringing notwithstanding - has done much of importance to me...except me.

Kerry is bipolar. She believed she was an alien. Kerry, dear, if you are bipolar then you are an alien! Do you have any idea how many people that are "mentally ill" believe at some point that they are aliens? Think about it. Who wants to come from this planet anyways???

Kerry Katona's alien belief
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Kerry Katona revealed she once believed she was an alien during her battle with mental illness.
The reality TV star spoke frankly about her bipolar disorder and struggle with fame as she addressed the Oxford Union yesterday (28.04.09).
Britain's The Sun newspaper reports she said: "I sat on the bed and said, 'Mark, I'm an alien' - and I really thought I was an alien.
"I didn't brush my teeth for a week. It's part of my personality."
Former Atomic Kitten star Kerry was a guest speaker at the debating society of the prestigious Oxford University. She spoke with students in a question and answer format for an hour and said there were no topics which were off limit.
Kerry was accompanied by her husband, Mark Croft, at the event - which was filmed by MTV for a forthcoming reality TV series.
Student Anshul Bakhda, 19, told Sky news afterward: "I thought she was really good. She was very frank and open.
"It was a really refreshing question and answer session. She talked about her history with mental illness, her mum, and the impact of the media on her family."

"I Yam Whad I Yam": Pop-I

Not so long ago someone was saying something to me that involved sources in living for regret-shame-deceit and all that bundle of scum. I snapped, "You have to live!" Look, I've done my share of things I'm not proud of but I'm not 'shamed of them. What might have hurt my kids I care about, and as for the rest it's like combat, we're all on the field, there will be casualties, no free lunches abound.

Recovery, to some extent - and maybe a great extent - is about acceptance and self-acceptance. But I say, it's about defiance, too. In order to have meaning recovery has to include a degree of "I-don't-give-a-****(of yer choice)". It's gotta have guts. Apologies are nice, you should say your sorries and then move on. My attitude is that you have zero obligation to spend your recovery feeling sorry for the people you hurt. They'll take every opportunity, given a chance, to remind you of what a monster you were (and still are, if they can fit that in). Don't spend the life you have saved killing it with undue kindness. Recover, but for life, not some lukewarming of the hearts of the hard-done-by.

This is the kind of blog post I appreciate. No b.s., no angles, just, uh, sane advice and methodology, practical and simple, on how to get back to the front.

The Natural Cure For Bipolar Disorder

You Can Cure Bipolar Disorder And Reclaim Your Life.

Contrary to what the medical authorities have told us, it is possible to treat and even cure bipolar disorder. Here are three fundamental techniques to help eliminate the symptoms of bipolar disorder.

Technique #1: Learn To Control Your Thinking

Although you might be taking medication to deal with your bipolar disorder right now, I promise you that 'bipolar self-help' is absolutely essential if you want to achieve freedom from your illness. Antidepressants and psychiatric care or therapy have their place, but currently there is not nearly enough emphasis being placed on the power of practicing self-help for those who want to overcome bipolar.

The most essential element of exercising self help and eventually being able to cure bipolar disorder is becoming acutely conscious of your thinking. The worst episodes always begin with small, seemingly harmless thoughts. Small thoughts in turn grow into something increasingly irrational, and soon another explosive episode is born.

Learning to control and master your thinking is an intensive process that requires tremendous self discipline and deep awareness of your personal tendencies. If you want to take the first step towards finally having the power to tame your own mind I suggest you seek the help of an alternative approach. Many people have been able to cure bipolar disorder, but it has not happened using conventional medicine. Achieving freedom from bipolar disorder is possible once you find the key for making these fundamental changes in your mood patterns and thinking.

Technique #2: Commit To Beneficial Outcomes

Perhaps the biggest tragedy of being afflicted by bipolar disorder is the frequent inability to create healthy situations and prevent destructive ones. On the contrary, when in the midst of struggling against their disease, those afflicted often bring about horrific pain, tumult, and heartache. In essence, technique #2 is simply an extension of the first technique; if you are able to exert control over the small thoughts that initially lead to irrational and poisonous emotions, you will be in a better position to commit to beneficial, healthy outcomes. Therefore it is necessary to master the thoughts that precede this eventual commitment if you are endeavoring to cure bipolar disorder. When struggling to maintain a healthy mood and rational thinking, you can simply declare within that you have firmly committed to not letting an episode flare up. In fact, you must then become unambiguously dedicated to a beneficial, non-explosive, neutral or even positive outcome.

The underlying thinking here is that you are converting what potentially began as something destructive and toxic, into what has the possibility of being a normal, safe, and advantageous result. When you are able to do this it will act as a powerful affirmation that you are much more than the chemical components of your brain - you are in control of your thinking, your moods, and your life. Believing you have control over yourself is absolutely imperative to positively affecting your reality and effectively thwarting potential episodes.

Technique #3: Use The Perspective Test

When feeling the onset of mania, the opportunity for performing a highly effective self-help test becomes crucially important. The Perspective Test consists of taking a step back from where you currently are emotionally and psychologically and evaluating the antithesis of your feelings. Therefore if you feel angry that your husband didn't clean the kitchen, imagine what it would be like to feel happy that your husband cleaned the kitchen. Although obviously not the case, and while you may indeed have valid reasons to be angry, the point with this exercise is to create massive contrast - the antithesis or opposite of what you are presently experiencing. For those who are capable of doing this, a fresh understanding of your own perspective is obtainable. It then becomes easier to resist letting the situation control you, and enables you to control your moods and thoughts irrespective of any current external factors. The main point here is that it doesn't matter if you are vindicated in feeling angry at the messy kitchen (or any other similar situation), you are choosing consciously to refuse to allow external circumstances to dictate the your inner dispositions.

Those who have a spouse or significant other who is ill with bipolar often struggle with their partner's intense rage, paranoia, jealously and other irrational and exaggerated emotions and thinking. Unfortunately the established medical community has not done enough to help the spouses and family members of those who suffer from bipolar disorder. However, there is alternative information that provides workable solutions and powerful advice for people is such situations.

Conclusion: Help Is Out There

In order to make real progress in your fight to reclaim your life and finally end the suffering of bipolar disorder it is necessary to break away from the established medical community. Although certain medications have been scientifically proven to help with anxiety, there is nothing that a medical doctor can offer you to cure your bipolar disorder. That must come from within, and it is only achievable with focussed and determined self help.
With effort and persistence, you can overcome bipolar. There is most certainly hope for living a normal life free of this illness. However this will not happen until you abandon the false belief that doctors will heal you - for clearly they can not. Sadly, doctors prognosticate a very bleak picture for bipolar patients. According to them, there is no known cure. Yet there are many people who have successfully treated bipolar by developing themselves and this has, in effect, led to being permanent cured.

In your fight to cure bipolar disorder it is imperative that you never lose hope, never give up, and actively seek out the information that provides lasting answers in order to develop a mastery of the self.

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All Too Real

One of the common misunderstandings about the experience of mental illness is that much of what those outside call "all in the mind" and assume to be delusive is actually all too real. What happens when you're "sick" is not always sickness, it can be the accretion and consolidation of the unseen; it can be fantasy as personal theatre; it can be real.

Definitions of real on the Web:

• being or occurring in fact or actuality; having verified existence; not illusory; "real objects"; "real people; not ghosts"; "a film based on real ...
• real(a): no less than what is stated; worthy of the name; "the real reason"; "real war"; "a real friend"; "a real woman"; "meat and potatoes--I call that a real meal"; "it's time he had a real job"; "it's no penny-ante job--he's making real money"
• not to be taken lightly; "statistics demonstrate that poverty and unemployment are very real problems"; "to the man sleeping regularly in doorways homelessness is real"
• capable of being treated as fact; "tangible evidence"; "his brief time as Prime Minister brought few real benefits to the poor"
• actual: being or reflecting the essential or genuine character of something; "her actual motive"; "a literal solitude like a desert"- G.K.Chesterton; "a genuine dilemma"
• of, relating to, or representing an amount that is corrected for inflation; "real prices"; "real income"; "real wages"
• real number: any rational or irrational number
• substantial: having substance or capable of being treated as fact; not imaginary; "the substantial world"; "a mere dream, neither substantial nor practical"; "most ponderous and substantial things"- Shakespeare
• the basic unit of money in Brazil; equal to 100 centavos
• (of property) fixed or immovable; "real property consists of land and buildings"
• very: used as intensifiers; `real' is sometimes used informally for `really'; `rattling' is informal; "she was very gifted"; "he played very well"; "a really enjoyable evening"; "I'm real sorry about it"; "a rattling good yarn"
• an old small silver Spanish coin

What is definitely real is this:

Explorer

• Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. - Ambrose Redmoon

• Fall seven times, stand up eight. - Japanese proverb

There is talk of replacing the word “recovery”. It isn’t exact, descriptive or adequate. It misses. I don’t mind it but I don’t like it. I was reading – a blog, what else? – and it hit-not-missed-me: explorer. That’s what I am, an explorer. Sure, we’ve heard about explorers in consciousness, in mind, innerly, inside-beyond, mental. Trips. It grabbed me: explorer. I’m looking for something I can’t lose. I almost lost it. I’m snow blinded and underfed. I’m supposed to be finding out but I am actually losing in. I didn’t lose “it”. I lost myself. I was lost, now I am finding. No records of value are kept. I have no map that isn’t burning. I’m not a suitcase, I never packed. I’m not alone, the terminal is full, the lines follow the horizon at right angles. I’m going in corners. Instead of limping around the point, let’s cut it all loose. I am an explorer, a random discoverer, and I am lost and wish to remain so.

I reject that in this world madness is a distinct or important reality. Interestingly some of the greatest criminals in history were not insane and nor were the minority that permitted them with their apathy to let the crimes be perpetrated at length. It takes a madman to kill one man and a sane man to kill one hundred thousand. I reject the description of a Hitler as “insane”: he was at the apex of sanity. He saw clearly that the collective conscience is scarred with its own cruelties, and that it can be used. The insane are at the edges. Like hungry dogs existing on the scraps of the sane, but important for their explorations beyond and behind – and inside – the Saneworld. I disdain Saneworld: it is known. It has nothing to teach me and by stumbling out of it and into the explorer role I glimpse freedom from the sane and their dreary and self-important cruelties.

If this sounds radical it is because you hear it only from habitual sanity. I am nothing to lose. I love when they say, “It’s all in your mind”, as though the predictable stupidities of Saneworld are less deluded. Unless you’re like me I am bored with you and that makes us about square. What makes me laugh is that one is mad, acts mad, and then is accused of and denigrated for being and for their madness. And that the sane are blind to their own insanity. It’s highly amusing and remarkable that the supposedly sane are so crippled with self-importance over their superior mental state. Yet we are all explorers. My exploration is of your madness, to know and feel it. Yours is to be sane and rejoice in it. I don’t need as many reasons for things: a taste of freedom. You want answers, which I have, but no questions, and so no context. What do I need answers for? I am an explorer of the unfindable and blind.

Recovery from Myself: The "Journey" I am.

At 42, after many years of difficulty and challenge culminating in a psychotic episode involving religious mania – to be recognised at last by the American DSM psychiatric manual – I self-diagnosed myself with bipolar disorder, confirmed shortly by a psychiatrist. The person I had been until my “breakdown” – more, as is often the case, a “break up” of my mind – no longer existed, replaced by a medicated, treated, new Jeremy. I went from being “moody” to “mentally ill”. Once we are diagnosed we begin to call on our societal, conditioned and borrowed contexts of madness and mental illness and apply them to ourselves, but it takes years to get to grips with how much of a factor this is in holding us back from recovery and reintegration. We stigmatise and redefine ourselves as sick, thereby co-operating with those whose jobs depend on characterising us as such, and contribute to the assumption that we are not “normal”, as though somewhere out there someone definitively is. In a society sick with stress and depression, anxiety and anger, we mentally ill are supposed to be “mad”, but there is little conclusive evidence that mental illness is more than a matter of separation from sanity by degrees, not some dramatic departure. And what happens when, statistically, the “mentally ill”, “disordered”, “dysfunctional” and other mind barbarians breach the gates are constitute more than half the population?

To really recover from mental illness we need to do more than get better and accept ourselves. We need to take everything “in my head” as real, stop stigmatising our symptoms and see them as natural and acceptable, even inevitable. This does not signify a descent into comfortable denial, it means a conscious and deliberate retaking of identity in the face of enormous inner and outer resistance. The place where the lines converge is where “normal” is synonymous with “disordered”, where it is recognised that the sick society is all of us, not just those with a diagnosis.

After seven years as a “service user” – a classic example of lopsided language used in this area: does anybody ever ask how much the service uses and needs the user? – with needs met for the most part caringly, if unconsciously, I see that to really recover I need more than anything else to turn away from conventional thinking and doing, be sensible but sensitive to alternatives in being and doing, and most of all never turn back on the road upon which I am set and which I have fought so hard to travel, and that will return me to myself whole if, despite all the competing and contradictory voices within and without, I can only stay strong, centred and defiant.

My “journey” – jargon, but at least relatively benign and intelligent – has taken me in wider and wider circles; I am not pretending that I have broken free yet of the various prisons constructed out of my illness by and for me. However, I have written two books on the impact on my life of bipolar disorder, one a memoir and the other focused on recovery, I work in the voluntary mental health sector, continue to be highly creative as a writer and musician, and although I experience the routine lulls and reversals of my condition – there I go doing it again! Of life – I am realistic and hopeful at once, seeing that who and what I am is normal, natural and able to be healed, and if that means deconstructing accepted contexts or, as Emerson put it, “disturbing all things sacred”, then so be it.

The experience of being mentally ill can be frightening and alienate you from yourself. The discovery that the pain, disappointment and difficulties of living with a mental illness have to be dealt with not only by drugs and endless talking but by a resolve to acknowledge the reality of your situation and thereby reintegrate it can seem daunting. The illness can deny much to us, but not the creativity and vitality to question, explore and find novel solutions to its problems. Being mentally ill means that there is more than one of me – if I am bipolar, at least two, and if I hear voices perhaps a half dozen or more – and that I am able to harness, hear and help my many selves to know, respect and work with each other. It may sound implausible but it is far from impossible. Hope and healing are words I often disparage. The truth is, though, that they are synonymous and indispensable. And for each of my recovering friends I wish both in plenitude.

Schizophrenics Call Ho-o-o-o-o-me!

With uncertain reference to the above post, this UFO contactees' blog goes into some detail on how hearing voices is not just characteristic of mental illness. I guess not, seeing as Moses did it. Joking aside (inside?) the previous post has some great power in it, some truth, but I'm damned if I can reach it. When I do, I'll tell you...right here.
(Image courtesy of this fruitcake Flikr site.)

Voice-Identification System May Be Absent in Schizophrenia

Voice-Identification System May Be Absent in Schizophrenia Mark Moran

Patients with schizophrenia appear to lack the normal neurophysiological function of "corollary discharge" by which animals are able to distinguish between external auditory sounds and their own internally generated thoughts and speech.
Functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI) appears to confirm that the auditory mechanism of patients with schizophrenia is "tuned in" to their own internal speech and thoughts, causing patients to mistake them for real voices.

This attention to internal acoustic patterns occurs at the expense of attention to external voices and sounds, according to a study appearing in the January Schizophrenia Bulletin.
The left side primary auditory cortex—where voices are processed in the brain—was found to be less responsive to external auditory probes among patients with schizophrenia who experience auditory hallucinations than among patients who do not hear voices and individuals without schizophrenia, according to the study.
The same effect was not found in the right side auditory cortex, underscoring the likelihood that the resources for processing external sounds of patients who hear voices are compromised on the left relative to the right because of the linguistic content of their internal voices.

"Researchers have long tried to understand where the voices patients hear are coming from," said lead author Judith Ford, M.D., in an interview with Psychiatric News. "This kind of study provides some really hard evidence that something is going on in the auditory cortex of patients that is making these voices seem very real."

She is a professor of psychiatry at the University of California, San Francisco.
In the study, whole brain images from 106 patients—including 66 hallucinators and 40 nonhallucinators—and 111 healthy comparison subjects were collected while subjects performed a task requiring them to identify external auditory sounds. Specifically, subjects heard a sequence of standard and target—or "oddball"—tones at periodic intervals and were instructed to press a button when they heard the oddball tone. The data were gathered at nine sites of the Functional Imaging Biomedical Informatics Research Network.

Response to the auditory probes was analyzed at several "regions of interest": the primary and secondary auditory cortex, the auditory association cortex, and the middle temporal gyrus.
Researchers found that healthy controls had greater activation in all of the regions of interest than did the patients, and that nonhallucinating patients had greater activation than did patients who were classified as "hallucinators."

Ford, in her research, has focused on what is known as "corollary discharge," the neurophysiological process by which all animals are able to distinguish between externally and internally produced sounds. This process is faulty in people with schizophrenia, Ford said, and she likens the resulting functional disability to the "line being busy" when the external auditory world tries to "connect" to the patient.

"Every animal has this corollary discharge function, and it is what allows us to know that what we are sensing is coming from us and not from somewhere else," Ford said. "It affects not just inner speech but memories and thoughts that pop up into your consciousness, and it allows you to know that these thoughts are yours. Patients with schizophrenia will often not be able to identify [their own internal voices and thoughts as distinct from the external world] because they are missing this system.

"So in fact they are hearing their own inner musings and obsessions as auditory sounds, and are hearing them louder than they should be. When they do hear sounds from the outside, they are in competition [with the internal sounds]."

Ford added that one implication of the study for clinicians is to underscore the difficulty patients can have in paying attention to and processing what they are told.
"The whole auditory apparatus [of people with schizophrenia who hear voices] is ready to experience internally generated sound and does not have energy to attend to the external auditory world," she said.

Funding was provided by the Biomedical Informatics Research Network.

Information about the Biomedical Informatics Research Network is posted at http://www.nbirn.net/. "Tuning In to the Voices: A Multisite fMRI Study of Auditory Hallucinations" is posted at <http://schizophreniabulletin.oxfordjournals.org/cgi/content/full/35/1/58